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♥ precious.
la bella vita;

Cara

loves: black and white photography. poetry. vintage stores. thunderstorms. good ambience. fairytales. disneyworld. black kohl and fuschia lipstick. red and purple skittles. turquoise beads. icing but not cakes. might-have-beens. the dandy warhols. within temptation. automatic loveletter. mediaeval baebes. troy. interview with a vampire. the oc. making 11:11 wishes. purple glitter. mermaids. my-little-ponies. magic.

expertise: melodramaticks. eyeliner. laughing. goodbyes. hanging in there.

♥ music on, world off.
shh.

soundtrack to life.

♥ scream(?).
live.

♥ past .
instant time travel

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♥ adieu .
set them free

AMANDA
ANDRE
ASH
DEB
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07IP04!
08IP04!
JOSH
KAT
LISA
QIU
RENJEAN


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Monday, December 31, 2007
hello, old friend. 8:24 AM

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me.
Shine until tomorrow, let it be.
---

and so this is the end of the road for now,
and so with sad stars in our eyes we remember,
and laugh, and cry,
and so it is.
We say goodbye.

...Well, you chose to go down one of those paths.

I hope you know that I love you.
Always have, always will.
And I'll miss you.


"You know that place between sleep and awake,
the place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan."

----

Hey, 2008.

C'mon in.




Sunday, December 23, 2007
hello, old friend. 5:00 AM

and the face in the crowd whispers
I can save you;
oh, I can save you.


Wednesday, December 19, 2007
hello, old friend. 5:34 AM

and in the midst of a paler December
we licked the postcards and sent off the letters
and made resolutions for a better new year;
We whispered promises so January wouldn't hear.
----

Finally.

I decided it was time for a new start.

Not a do-over.
Even though I know I've messed up pretty badly sometimes in the past year, in the past two years-- I don't regret making any of those mistakes. Gosh it sounds cliched; but maybe it only sounds that way cos it's true- well and truly it is.
I am what my mistakes have made me...and yeah, I'm still a work in progress- but I'm getting there.

It's going to be Christmas in just over a week; and it's almost scary- how could the holidays have gone by so quickly?
I'm still trying to find the meaning of Christmas.
... I mean- I've always known the meaning of Christmas; or, at least, what Christmas should mean for good Christian girls-- but really, I just need to find it for myself. Don't quote the Nativity Story to me, or lecture me about morality and how the festive season means so much more than greedy hands and piped in music and billboards screaming WASTE YOUR MONEY HERE. Don't even start to talk to me about Santa Claus and how I've been incredibly blessed and don't tell me how I should spend Christmas to make it more meaningful.

I need, I want, and I will find Christmas... but I'll find what it means to me; and this is something I have to do alone.

Ugh.
I swear, this whole thinking deal s'worse than PMS.

I'm not allowed to go for Incubus.
I will go to see Switchfoot. I don't know the how or where or when (...did I mention the how?); but I will get to see them.

The other day was fun- the girls came over and we had these adorable teensy chocolate bars and tiny marshmallows and a six-hourlong Disney movie marathon.
The Disney characters do get progressively less pretty with age.
And John Rolfe looks like John Smith 'cept with brown hair and a tunic and of course those wonky balloonesque trousers of his; and Prince Eric looks like Aladdin(!), I swear, just fairer and with blue eyes and different hair and a more exposed torso.

No RJ, I still have no idea how merpeople have babies.

...Oh my goodness why're the holidays passing so fast.
STOP HOLIDAYS STOP.
Where's the button somebody killed the button(!).

List.
- Meet Jae (Welcome back from the land of the sheikhs, darlin'!)
- Meet Genial (Welcome back from Down Underrrr.)
- Meet Av and Cheryl
- Meet Maxy and Ting (...I am so sorry. Our outing is so overdue; you guys can totally bust me. Entirely my bad.)
- Watch Enchanted
- Watch Ch & Liang's church musical
- Go for church camp. (not by my choice. By force.)
- Go for Gelare's cookie gelato sundae <3
- Visit Mrs. Pang with cherry liquers in hand
- Christmas shopping!
- get rid of writers' block. Grrr.
- CAP porfolio omg!
- sweet 16thhhhh.
- run.
- skate.
- gym.

Why yes I am a busy individual.

Orlando and Breckenridge were so awesome, it'd take forever to talk about them.
We met the sister of Pocahontas and Jasmine and my gosh it'd be sweet to work at Disney World. (AND you get paid for doing it!)
The guys in Breckenridge have great jobs. I mean, seriously. Ski patrol? Snowmobile guides?
Pshttt sign me up.
My ski instructor kinda reminded me of that old Playboy dude. Ex Miss Georgia and ex Miss Missouri and a beach house in the summer and everything. He was way nice, though. Kinda like an extra fit, extra rich, extra playerish kind of grandpapa.
The powder was so rad, you cannot believe.


I'll talk more later.

Late night telly, y'all. <3