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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

hello, old friend. 6:55 AM

p-p-p-party in the usa

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...that's right. I so just used a Miley Cyrus quote to kick off my blogpost.

So what you got?

HARVARD MUN 2010, BABY.

Lots of hard work, and many sessions, but well worth while, I reckon.

Team Delegation South Korea hits LAX.

Oh, and Lisa- bring your journal and a suitcase of dreams, because Harvard, here we come.

America baby, you're gonna be seeing a lot of me over the next few months.

Hey, Lady Liberty.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

hello, old friend. 9:43 AM

Rearrange my alibi of the day

and you're one letter short of "c-a-t-a-s-t-r-o-p-h-i-c".

don't touch, i

bite.

Monday, October 26, 2009

hello, old friend. 3:40 AM

...and I'm feeling reeeaal festive.

3oh!3 knew what they were on about.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

hello, old friend. 6:36 AM

WE JUST DID AN AWESOME JOB OF NOT DYING"

- John Green, Let It Snow: 3 Holiday Stories

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So the wave has crashed, and we're all starfished on the beach.

We have learnt that there is no restful lull after the plunge.

We have been holding our breath since the start of this year, and we have found out that we'll have to hold it till the end of next year. And then there will be a deep breath, and then it shall be straaaight on to Uni-- second star to the right, and study straight on till morning!

No exhaling. Just keep breathing.

We all watched Enchanted for GP today.

It was amazing. There's just something about Disney that makes you want to believe in pixiedust, and magic, and Christmas.

Like Lisa said-- it was just...feel-good. You can't watch it and NOT smile. Elderly men with yellow flowers for their elderly sweethearts. And mass singing in the park. And pastel tulle skirts made of curtains. And-- of course-- happily ever after.

It makes me a little sad, though.

It's been a while since I've believed in that.

I'd like to. I really would. But somehow something always stops me somewhere before I reach the middle and says...no.

It was nice, though. Laughing over Amrit's shoulder at the Evil Queen (Amrit: "...I love that biatch!") and feeling a little bittersweet looking over at Lisa, and all three of us smiling fondly at Ily; who was just completely oblivious and had her darling little chin propped up on one hand and was watching the screen, absolutely enraptured, with her mouth half open.

I may not believe in happily ever after but I do believe in happy.

My little sister's having her birthday party atm, so the house is currently overrun by hyperactive little girls who are truly to be feared. I have never heard such blatant misuse of the words "totally" and "emigash".

Josh- you're free to come over for dinner, if you want. ;)

...I kid. And now you're going to ask me to take this off my blog because I KNOW YOU, PADAWAN.

And no, they won't stah stah you for this.

Please don't ask me to take ^that off too.

You're safe and we love you; and as Top Geog Student you have Immunity.

Spent Free Period (...okay, in our defense, we THOUGHT it was free period. Honest. ): ) in Bytz with Ren Jean.

It's been a while, PaperPlane! You so Nerdalicious, it's like the Geeks Get The Girls. I'll get a Tattoo if you come with me on the Grey Escape.

Quoted from her blog [with her comments in bracketz] :

" P-R-T-T-Y

Haven’t spent time with The Neo in a while.

And here’s the ditzy I’ve been missing.

Cara: *Signs into Gmail in Bytes*

*Turns to say something to me*

-20 seconds later-

*Looks back at screen*

*panic*

HEY WHY’S MY ACCOUNT SIGNED ON?!?!

…ohyea. I signed on.

(No, people don’t stalk you to that extent. Or maybe they do. coughEr,I’mJoecough)

Cara: *In a fit of anger* Nyyeeeehhhhhhhhhh!

(Elvish for……I’m a princess?)

Yea I know, my blog misses your quotes too :)"

...Okay, for one...no. Joe doesn't stalk me. Because they don't have computers/technology/electricity where he lives.

And for two-- I'm not a ditzy, dammit.

I'm an ELVISH PRINCESS.

PW has been tiring, to say the least.

Many sessions in school and Coffee Bean spent editing our WR. Many bloodshot eyes. Much tiredness. Many typos.

Cases in question...

Wenjia: *types out, while Cara dictates verbally* "...It is the responsibility of China's MOE to provoid..."

Cara: *peeks over shoulder*

*points*

...It's spelt "provide", darling. I know my pronounciation's weird as, but still.

And Xuyang was so tired that he spelt "Mr Menon" as "Mt Menon".

Fortunately we spotted that- else a certain somebody might be facing suspiciously raised NAPFA standards, next year.

...argh LITTLE GIRLS HAVE INVADED MY ROOOOOMMMM.

And they've brought in the puppy and a veritable Kilimanjaro of fluffy sleeping bags and they're gossiping about boiz, oh Lawd, why're they gossiping about boiz no more importantly why is my SISTER gossiping about boiz didn't she just graduate from diapers??

Okay, must go now.

Time to defend the Motherland.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

hello, old friend. 6:53 AM

Y'know- I've decided I'm just gonna take tomorrow as it comes.

LIKE A STORM, IT TOO WILL PASS-- and I so have a Plan To Cheer Myself Up After.
It involves aquamarine dresses and Irish music and downtown and general spenditure.
I should probably get a job.

We started normal lessons today, again.
And I quote one of the teachers during one of the lectures today: "...I know some of you are in holiday mode. I know it. You thought everything was going to be over after Promos, right???" (at which point I think, "...well, um. actually, yes") and she goes "...But no! NO!" and gets this queer glint in her eye.
Kinda like the part in an episode of Kim Possible where Drakken laughs maniacally and reveals his Master Plan For World Domination; only this master plan can be solved with a GC and involves complex mathematical formulas.
Oh well. All in the name of Prepping For J2.

Catching up with the DWLs was great today, though.
Josh- at least now you know that if your career in psychology doesn't work out; you could always look into joining Whose Line Is It Anyway.
Suffered through the usual white man jokes and teased Lisa about BODY SHOP oh hello, multi-tasker.

I quote from Lisa's xanga:
"But it was good to see the DWL (ie Amrit, Cara, Ily, Joan, and Josh) again. Have missed lunches as a group. Funny stories about wisdom teeth and the Cara Fan Club.

(snicker)"

...Uh, HAI LISA; am not the one who had a love confession from some sekrit admirer tacked up on the NJC wall kthx. Norrrrr does my boyfriend use moisturizer. You know what I mean-- and-- yes, I went there. Whatcha gonna do- whack me upside the head with one of his golf clubs?

You should also know that I derive great pleasure from knowing that you can't respond to this over here cuz I've no longer got a tagboard; so SCORE ZERO! to the little people.

Everything else aside; I've been enjoying the pseudo-freedom I've had lately.
It's nice to have the first line of a new song run through your head; and be able to go home and record it and plan out pretty words, without having to feel guilty about neglecting Econs Case Study 563 or whatever. It's nice to be able to borrow The Odyssey and The Silmarillion, and be able to read them. It's nice to be able to head to the pool after school and take a dip and spend an hour after just basking in the sun and not doing much of anything else at all.

...Okay, now.

PW calls, and I've just realized how incredibly tired I am.

God; give me strength to weather tomorrow.

Antianara; be my inspiration and help me stay stoic.

Self; know that better things're a-comin'.

Till next time, y'all.

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Has finished doing PW, and is now: MSNing with Millie Moo Mar Mae, who rules the world. (Joe's little sister)

We're cool like that.

Monday, October 12, 2009

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

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Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Waking up, mornings, words, pictures-that-never-were, voices, legs outside libraries, ominousity...everything. I know I sound like a little coked up whiny emo kid and maybe I am but maybe what I'm feeling is real because I don't feel like this very often. Believe it or not behind the moody fringe is actually a very optimistic person who actually loves life a fair bit.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Now they'll see and c'mon Cara, who're you kidding, nobody buys your little excerpts about gates and rusty bars and antiseptic any more. You've got to kick this new-old habit before it comes back and takes you the way it did before.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want to marry if this is what it's like. I don't want to settle for the box if they're what it's like. I don't want to live past thirty/forty/whichever age the mental decreptitude, the weariness in the soul takes you because I overhear him telling Daddy how he's gotten tired, so tired, and how he's thankful for what he's been given but sometimes he just looks to the sky and asks God, why won't you take me? I am exhausted...

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

I have a voice of warm gravel to turn to- unlawfully familiar despite the 7000mile crevice; his voice and his strength and the Tomorrow flame he ignites when he speaks. I have a laughable January, and an indelible summer, and a Christmas that promises immortality.

And I have good friends. True friends. Friends who would push strangers out of their cars at 3AM in the morning and drive like fiends to get to me if I needed them, even though they're a few months short of 18 and can't tell a car brake from a windshield wiper.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

----

Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

----

Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

----

Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

----

Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.

hello, old friend. 7:20 AM

"When you've understood this scripture, throw it away.

If you can't understand this scripture, throw it away.

I insist on your freedom."

- Jack Kerouac (The Scripture of the Golden Eternity)

----

Today the world rolled out of bed, decided it'd had enough of spamming N.K with nukes and mocking Ris Low for the week, and decided to make it Hey, Let's Make Cara's Life A Living Misery! Day.

I don't usually speak in absolutes but almost everything about today was cloudy; almost everything.

Today she kind of got trampled on, though.

...And...how could I be so stupid.

Lately I've been thinking about big things, too; Big things, Scary things, Future things.

Like how I set too-high standards for everything and how the world I want only exists in black and white, and in this world of 40, 075.02KM polaroid film it doesn't work that way.

I don't want any of it.

But there's years to go before then, and hope to have, and smiles to keep. I need to start drinking more coffee and stop with the mental medication.

I have people to be thankful for.

Friends hanging from a cliff with one finger clinging to the Cross; who would let go so they could stretch out that hand to point God in my direction.

So life can't be all that bad, right?

Right.

Chin high, little girl- stand up and fight.