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la bella vita;

Cara

loves: black and white photography. poetry. vintage stores. thunderstorms. good ambience. fairytales. disneyworld. black kohl and fuschia lipstick. red and purple skittles. turquoise beads. icing but not cakes. might-have-beens. the dandy warhols. within temptation. automatic loveletter. mediaeval baebes. troy. interview with a vampire. the oc. making 11:11 wishes. purple glitter. mermaids. my-little-ponies. magic.

expertise: melodramaticks. eyeliner. laughing. goodbyes. hanging in there.

♥ music on, world off.
shh.

soundtrack to life.

♥ scream(?).
live.

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♥ adieu .
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
hello, old friend. 3:01 AM

And you dropped the note and we changed key
You changed yourself and I changed me
Then I screamed the bridge and you cried the verse
and our chorus came out unrehearsed
and you smiled the whole way through it;
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This blogpost is of no particular significance.
Consider it a collection of random musings and stardust and thoughts gathered from here and there.

I've been scrolling through pictures of MG's Founders' Day Dinner on facebook- and looking at all the pretty familiar faces and the over-the-counter makeup and the laughter and the silhouette lighting- it makes me feel a little funny inside.
...Once an MG girl, always an MG girl; or so the saying goes- and yet sometimes I can't help feeling a little out of it. I know there're people out there who know what I mean.
It makes me smile a little to think that if I hadn't come to nj, I'd have been getting gussied up and having my hair coiffed and smiling big and taking lots of pictures and making memories too.

I don't regret my decision, though.
Or, at the very least- I don't think I do.
Coming here has made me so much stronger, and wiser, and it has taught me to fear myself, and to love myself, and to trust myself, and to heal myself,
and even amidst all this grey I'm pretty sure there's something beautiful here.


Today I realized that both ASEAN Night and F.O.P are rolling around yet again,
and I actually froze where I was when I realized that it's already been a year.

...wow.
One whole year.
Has it really been that long?
It seems not-so-long-ago that we were heading off to F.O.P and ASEAN Night:
Delirious(?), we linked hands across the aisles to pray
save them, find us, we are here, we are here, we are here,
gold and black-lined eyes and little swishy dresses and blinding white dancefloor lights
a ceiling of synthetic stars and stone steps and sprite in champagne glasses
sekrit pacts and dancing to sinatra and the stroke of midnight
the first sleepover that was actually a sleepover because we three were so exhausted that we fell asleep as soon as we got home


gee golly it seems like just yesterday.

MaxTing&I were talking about it and so much has changed since yesterday/last year/our clock never tells the right time anyway.
and yet I think we can all safely say that the real life rollercoaster has made us so much (insertglowingadjectivehere)
and now the weight of the world is on my shoulders
but I have found a way to steal the sun from the sky


long live the day I decided to fly.






for you, and for you, and you, and you,
and you.