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la bella vita;

Cara

loves: black and white photography. poetry. vintage stores. thunderstorms. good ambience. fairytales. disneyworld. black kohl and fuschia lipstick. red and purple skittles. turquoise beads. icing but not cakes. might-have-beens. the dandy warhols. within temptation. automatic loveletter. mediaeval baebes. troy. interview with a vampire. the oc. making 11:11 wishes. purple glitter. mermaids. my-little-ponies. magic.

expertise: melodramaticks. eyeliner. laughing. goodbyes. hanging in there.

♥ music on, world off.
shh.

soundtrack to life.

♥ scream(?).
live.

♥ past .
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♥ adieu .
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
hello, old friend. 3:43 AM

hello world,
I'm alive and staring you straight in the eye.

I have realized that the strangest people can be our saviours.


This post is supposed to be an appreciation post to all the people- good, bad, otherwise- who have somehow touched my life.
You might appear once, or twice, or not at all.
So. Deep breath.
Here goes.
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1) You are wonderful.
I'll never get too old to stop sneaking into your bedroom at night and sitting on your bed and thinking "this feels like home".
I love you.

2) We are a Broadway musical unto ourselves.
I have the coolest grandparents ever. Period.

3) We've drifted and we've changed but I love how the distance heals itself once we get back together.

4) Bet you didn't know that song was for you.

5) I know I push you away sometimes.
But you're far more beautiful than you give yourself credit for; far stronger, far wiser.
Don't you see it? Don't you see it?

6) You. were a wonderful distraction.
But see- rearranged, the ghetto beats could never spell l-o-v-e
and I think we both knew it.

7) I've never forgotten you, green eyes.
Sleep soundly. I miss you.

8) We slayed dragons and wielded legendary swords and shared smouldering love triangles and had the awesomest powers and battled shoulder to shoulder and I still keep the stories in my drawer. Back then we were so invincible.

9) If you'd asked me two years ago, the only thing I'd have known about you would have been your name.
You're lovelier than you realize.
I hope you know that.

10) I may have loved you once, long ago, but I am happy with what we have today.
You actually listen to me and to be honest that's pretty impressive.
You lost your chance three years back but I love you in a different way now
think garden swings and nonchalance and digital analog 2AMs.

11) If she's the one I've heard about- well, I'm not impressed at all.

12) You told me pretty nothings and gave me pretty things and brought me to pretty places.
But it was so surreal and you were so selfish and I'm glad I said no.
Keep your lyrics. Keep your watered-down alcohol.
I know what I deserve and yes love I'd walk away again.

13) you think nobody understands you but baby, I've always been here.
keep that smile you're like bottled sunshine.
keep your faith- we'll make this work.

14) You were always the girl next door,
the best friend but never the girlfriend,
the lover but seldom the loved
oh but precious you deserve so much more
I've never known anyone else like you before.

15) You think you know me but sugar I know better.
It's not my fault the stories I heard scared me away.

16) I didn't tell you so but I liked your _ _ _ more than I liked you.

17) I have tossed all of your gifts to the back of my cupboard.
when the economy starts recovering I'll sell them on ebay.

18) You don't belong in this strange land, poppet.
Go back, go back.
They're waiting for you back home.

19) come back around here and my friends'll rearrange your face.

20) The ports are calling, blue-eyed sailor.
When're you gonna sail on home?
I've got that teddybear and that white lace dress, oh
we'll hide in old ferries and be our own '20s movie.

21) because they don't know you like I do, love.
they don't know what you've been through but I do, love.
you are soft shining resonance so please glow like I want you to, love.
don't be afraid to let your real beauty shine through, love.

22) you can starve but you'll never starve away your malice, doll,
you've become so paperthin I can see right through you.

23) you think I've forgotten you but you've changed me, sweetheart.
your name spelt backwards reads words like declaration strength faith independence
the first boy hurt you and I know (deep inside) you still grieve
but there's a boy who's healing you now
and I'm glad.

24) sometimes it scares me
the way you get so two-dimensional
sometimes I look at you and wonder
are you real?
are you real?
are you real?

25) you're gonna make someone a really good husband one day.
love will find you.
you'll see.

26) the feelings, they come softly and I didn't hear them coming
i won't let this become something but i kinda like kinda liking you.

27) we were golden once.

the names and the people (and I will never tell you who, but)
some of them loved me
some of them left me
some smiled for the camera and then turned to dust in my hands
but the bottom line is: all of you have made my life what it is today.
and so tonight all my words go out to you.