<body>
♥ precious.
la bella vita;

Cara

loves: black and white photography. poetry. vintage stores. thunderstorms. good ambience. fairytales. disneyworld. black kohl and fuschia lipstick. red and purple skittles. turquoise beads. icing but not cakes. might-have-beens. the dandy warhols. within temptation. automatic loveletter. mediaeval baebes. troy. interview with a vampire. the oc. making 11:11 wishes. purple glitter. mermaids. my-little-ponies. magic.

expertise: melodramaticks. eyeliner. laughing. goodbyes. hanging in there.

♥ music on, world off.
shh.

soundtrack to life.

♥ scream(?).
live.

♥ past .
instant time travel

December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010

♥ adieu .
set them free

AMANDA
ANDRE
ASH
DEB
ELEMM
07IP04!
08IP04!
JOSH
KAT
LISA
QIU
RENJEAN


♥ credits .
thankyouverymuch

Designer: 01 02
Image: 03
Hosts: 04 05 06
Brushes: 07 08 09 10
Fonts: 11

Web Counter
Hit Counter

Friday, February 20, 2009
hello, old friend. 8:51 PM

"After such distance come to me, precious being, come to me.
After such ennui, come to be delirious, enfold me.
After such a long drought, here's a place for flowers to flourish.
But if you must, and if you must, if you much go, the wind will take you, it will life you across the ocean.
Into the sky, towards the sun, it will take you high."
----

It's Saturday and the day is sun-soft and full of potential.

Last night was a nice reprieve from the waiting.
The Universe can be a bitch sometimes but for what it's worth, it does have its Nice Days, too.
5 months and I'm ever-hopeful. Call it presumptious but I've already marked down the dates. I swear if I don't get in, I'll probably do something drastic and potentially self-destructive.
Sooo if any of you've got any big confessions to make to me-- tell me now while you can or forever hold your peace!!

Today my shin was hurting like @#*&!@ so I rested and then went to the pool with my sister for a swim. It's funny how when we go out, people always assume we're mother and sister. It can also get kinda embarrassing when we two go out with my dad cuz then people also assume that I'm with Daddy and that always makes me feel very odd.
So whenever Jana, Daddy and I go out; I make sure I raise my normal speaking voice by about two octaves and cling to his arm and pepper any and all conversations generously with "Dadddddy".
Just so people get the message.

...which brings me to the topic of me and my sister. My sister and myself. My sister and I.
GP Syntax confuses me.
We were watching ancient century-old home videos the other night and wowzers my brother doesn't belong in this day and age. he belongs back in the time of the Beatles and of retro-pop and flashing disco-balls; that boy's got jitterbug feet!
and OMG I can't believe I was that geeky-looking back in the day. Okay so maybe I can; but THAT geeky? Those teeth...and those glasses... and I'm not even talking sexy secretary type glasses, I'm talking "it'th timeth to do my math homeworkth nowth *lisp lisp*" kinduv geeky
oh the mortification...
My sister, on the other hand. I don't ever remember her being so adorable but she really was!!
Even at four she knew how to sparkle on camera and she was always the one posing. Dancing. Giggling in the background and waving her hands until the camera panned to her face.
And me? I was always just kinda...there.
The steadfast little girl in the corner with her nose in a book two years more advanced than her grade. The Responsible Older Sister whose main onscreen role was to take the little dancing girl by the hand and say, "...don't go there, s'dangerous." The one who looked straight at the camera and you could tell, even from behind those g-dawful glasses, that she wasn't quite there, was somewhere far, far away...

I'm different now, I know, I've changed.
For one-- I've lost the terrible spectacles. *grins* ...become more reckless, become braver in front of the camera, learnt how to laugh, learnt to look not so damn lost! in pictures.

My sister sparkles and I shimmer-- and that just about sums up the difference between the both of us.

...okay now looking back at the whole big chunk of what I've written, I don't quite know what the POINT of this post is but oh well...

i promise a more coherent post next time 'round. :D
I'm off to do Mathematics like the good little girl I'm supposed to be. And also to update and filter through my diary because I expect Manda will be wanting to read it tomorrow. I swear she treats my personal life like a Meg Cabot novel!


peace, love, jellybeans.

<3