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♥ precious.
la bella vita;

Cara

loves: black and white photography. poetry. vintage stores. thunderstorms. good ambience. fairytales. disneyworld. black kohl and fuschia lipstick. red and purple skittles. turquoise beads. icing but not cakes. might-have-beens. the dandy warhols. within temptation. automatic loveletter. mediaeval baebes. troy. interview with a vampire. the oc. making 11:11 wishes. purple glitter. mermaids. my-little-ponies. magic.

expertise: melodramaticks. eyeliner. laughing. goodbyes. hanging in there.

♥ music on, world off.
shh.

soundtrack to life.

♥ scream(?).
live.

♥ past .
instant time travel

December 2007
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♥ adieu .
set them free

AMANDA
ANDRE
ASH
DEB
ELEMM
07IP04!
08IP04!
JOSH
KAT
LISA
QIU
RENJEAN


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Tuesday, February 3, 2009
hello, old friend. 9:33 PM

"You and me are the disease and the germs are spreading.
Use me like Listerine, keeping your breath fresher, feel the stroke of your paintbrush, my blank sheet of paper.
I'm your book of the month, read the fine print later."
----


this week has been decidedly better than the last one.
the last week = a blur
this week = a slightly more tolerable blur.

Trainings have been scary-sounding but- surprisingly- have passed pretty okay. (:
"okay" as far as cross-country trainings go, anyway...
And Real Life hasn't quite hit yet. It's straining at its leash but I've got one hand covering my left ear and one hand pushing it away and so far it seems to be working.

all I have to do is:
make it to july
make it to july
make to july
...and then everything'll be all right. i know it.

note: this was intended to be a happy post but the thing is nothing ever really sounds happy, not when it comes from me anyway, so in case you were wondering
YES I AM HAPPY :D (or at least I AM, at occasional intervals) KTHX

...happy and also very tired. So tired. I'm always tired, these days...
I slept for eight hours yesterday (which is about 2X more than what I usually get) and woke up with eyebags and people asking me why I looked so hollow.
I'm giving up on early nights. >/ 2AMs and caffeine-fixes FTW.


note to a friend:

you're becoming like the midnight me.
don't. don't. don't. and again, don't.
i'm one to talk(!), but you've got such beautiful eyes
in the prime of your life
and you've got a dad who waits up for you at home on friday nights
put down the bottle. backtrack through the smoke curtain. pay the driver his cabfare. shake off the strange fingers that found their way into yours somewhere between the dancefloor and 1.37AM and wish yourself home
dorothy go back to kansas you've gotta wish yourself home.
----
... I think that if I wasn't so damn tired I actually would be in a pretty good mood right now.
I've also managed to make it through without _________, which tbh I'm rather pleased with. I was running out anyway.
Unfortunately, I haven't been able to keep away from _________ but I'm not gonna admit addiction just yet, no; not gonna wave the white flag just yet; right now
it's game on.
wednesday
thursday
friday
saturday
july.